Hang'n with viggo/ storys .4%

sorry, the hang'n with viggo show was not aired last night as i didnt get home till 1:40 am.

now i will do storys from the interweb...

....its 6am, the world seems a bit more quite then normal.
things just seem to slow down at 6.
*sigh* i guess i should tell u, this story isnt as happy as the others.
about 10 mins ago i woke up, coverd in sweat, and dreading my own life.
my heart was set at a speed most cars dont even go.
i think its about time i got outside and stopped trying to be another shift in the useless gear.

i went outside, i stand on the leadge, just waiting for a gust of wind to come and push me over.
nothing comes, nothing ever happens when i need it too.
its about 3 days before the 1 year marker of my sons death.
i missed his birthday last year, and he died only 3 days later.
its fair of me to go to his grave and wish him a happy birthday.
but it would also bring me more pain then happyness.
i miss my old life, 35 is not old, but i grip my chest everyday and feel the pain of a heart attack.
im going back to sleep, in hopes that i wont wake up.....

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